You wish you never got out of bed, you want to smash a window or simply crawl under a rock and not think about diabetes, but instead you're got to figure out what do you do?
Get up after 4 hours sleep and keep on keeping on!
I have had so many lows the last few days that I feel like I’m running on empty. Last night was filled with 2 juices, a piece of bread and a glass of Milo!
The only thing I kept asking myself while I was tossing and turning was why? Just why?
I usually have a juice by my bed every night just in case, however after the crazy ride I have been on the last few days for some reason I got another popper to have by my side. Before I went to bed I tested myself and I was 10mmol/L (which normally is perfect for me before bed!) however last night, even though I reduced my Lantus, it seemed it wasn’t high enough.
I could feel myself dropping throughout the night - I get very agitated, sweaty and have really bad nightmares if my levels go low. I didn’t have the ability to actually get up and test myself so I reached for the juice and skulled it. I was so exhausted that I just rolled over and dozed off for another hour to only wake again. This time one juice wasn’t going to cut it so I made my way to the kitchen for a slice of bread.
Fast forward two hours…I got up again and made myself a milo as I could feel myself dropping for the third time….. it was 4:00am in the morning!
Today, after 4 hrs of sleep and another 3 lows I feel like just giving in.
Diabetes can take the lead today because I just don’t have the energy to fight it! Maybe my body is trying to tell me something but I cannot quite work it out.
Accepting that it is just ‘one of those days’ where you don’t have control over it really sucks! I hate that defeated feeling.
I wish there was a ‘get out of jail free card’ where you could just flash and others would just get it but it is what it is!